speechless...

i wish i had the words to say what i feel but i dont. its to consuming and i fear if i linger in my thoughts for to long i shall get lost there...

"everything happens for a reason"- im not sure who said that but dear person, i cant seem to find the reason to many things of late.

L's text made me smile last night. thank u friend #whatwouldidowithoutyou...

yay movie night... i am keen*

have a happy day all
xoxo

please point me in the right direction--->

so im blogging again, my internet decided it was going to allow me to log into my various accounts after days of disallowing me. its almost christmas yet it doesnt feel like it. we have the tree up and my mums going shopping but no-one is really in the mood. my rents trip to india go postphoned due to a problem with the project. so more waiting into the new year. also the cuz that i wanted to see cant get of work so i wont get to see her or my nephew and the cuz who hates me is coming on tues...#howexciting. im convincing my mum to let us drive to jozi before new year....early birthday present...

all i want for christmas is for a black hole to consume my supps. i attempted to do some maths the other day and it didnt go down well. hello maths in second year*

on a happier note my mum wants to play the tables* yay poker and other fun games. grand west is awesome. particularly when i win at go carting..though they need to go faster....

and ive run out of things to say...

have a happy day in sunny cape town
smile, xoxo

in search of answers...

firstly, i FINALLY found leighs blog...it was great. im super excited that i dont have to search for it anymore.

on another not. india may not be happening anymore. adults. why cant they just be more descivie...not everything is that hard. also if my rents do go to india ive been asked to transfer tooo.... wow..i dnt think i can do that

right now my rents need flights that allows them to be present for my sisters graduation however this is not exactly possible. my dads playing games with the company, i wish he would just say what he wants and signs the contract.

everything is so uneasy.we all trying not to say what a mistake this would be if my dad doesnt take the job. vice president is kinda a big deal. plus i like the idea of having a driver and a cook in india...

also its great experience in two more years i'll have my degree and i want to do honours oversees
i'll finish this later...

xoxo smile

....

so i have no title for this post partly because im not sure whats going to be in it. i just feel like typing...
results come out in a couple of days.....im anxious...please let me pass maths!!!! yes i have mths issues...but with good reason!

i saw sarah-jane yesterday. she practicaly flew at me i had to take a second to realise who i was huging* i missed your face though. it was an amazing suprise.

A. and L though have gone m.i.a. which is strange but i hope they are all well. i should visit soon and take them something.

i baked today. though i must admit there is far to much sugar in my shortbread. its good but deathly...do not eat more than one piece!

ive been reuniting with my durban friends lately... its been great to speak to all of them again without having to stress about all the work that needs to get done.

thats all i think for now, the bright light makes my eyes hurt.

good night world..may the stars watch over you and may happy dreams never fade you***
smile,xoxo

freedom*

yay so its offically vac! exams could not have taken any longer. but i think i passed so alls good. today i am off to the beach to get more brown...lol
so life has been happening while ive been away... LEIGH has joined blogging yay leigh and welcome, i need your blog address. please and thanks

V, actually replied to a message yeaterday! shock......
it was amazing
sorry for not texting everyone else but i have my phone back and its returned numberless, apologies

A! taco night!!!! yes please... and i have more news about india* #itsgnahappen #icanfeelit!

lol okay im gnna go now

much love to all
smile, xoxo

return to blogging in one week.....sorry for the neglection*

drowning.......

this week has been bad. i have lost dp for maths and my parentals are going to kill me! also if i appeal and win then i need 65% for both exams to pass. failure doesnt sit well with me.

people expect to much.... honestly...

have a good day everyone*

xoxo,smile

beautiful friend*

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY STARGIRL

you make all of us smile and bring us together and make us feel special so yes u are very important person and we love u....

we may or may not have missed sunset but it was magical. and then the stars came out and V said the sweeetest thing "u count as a star"- truestory#

i hope ur day was a perfect as u wanted it to be...
yes i baked and lrft the house for u. thats how special u are...(dnt hate me V)

ur gift and letter will come ur way soon...promise

much love

xmile,xoxo

twitterislife#

twitter is awesome.... go tweet. yes. now.

k bye

end of the road....

its an amazing day in cape town and i was in a reasonably good mood till now... it happens sometimes, this overwhelming feeling consumes me and i fell like i cant breath.

this week has been a mission and i really miss my friends but i dont get to see them coz i have some test or project or someother thing rashing my life!
Fish heard me swear yesterday for the first time. it shocked her as much as it shocked me. i was stressed and screwed for my bio test and i had just given up!!!

sometimes i wish it would all just go away. i want to be free and me... and talk to lisa coz she makes me laugh... ps welcome to blogging love*
and andy i feel super bad everything i was gg or 90210 or some series coz i think of u and think of watching it with U.

again my blogging ses has to end coz i need to go fail my maths homework test.gta love my life.

hope everine is having a better time than i am

much love
xoxo, smile

changing the world one smile at a time*

so my super awesome friend ANDY is in Madagascar on a mission, changing the world and making it a happier place.

so heres to you for doing somwthing thats important to you and inspiring me to do the same.



smile,
xoxo

Eid Mubarak

eid Mubarak to all*
yay its an exciting day...i like Eid (no i dont need to be muslim to like it..)

also AVATAR: the last airbender is coming out today. which is going to be awesome.my new obsession, well that along with V.

no no not Victoria V, but V the series. so great. M.U.S.T.H.A.V.E.M.O.R.E.

anyway the sun is out and if my mum was taking any longer to get dressed it would be tomorrow. my rents are off to jozi for fun.
bleh...i want to see my nephew

in other news...i have to agree with V. reading promotes imagination. sorry albert you are a genius but maybe literatue is not your forte'

happy day to you all
smile, xoxo

oh and lyns i am very sad i didnt get to see u this week but i shall see u at our reunion and V and A and everyone else..

its not real...

dear Victoria:

you know that i am your stalker and that i will always argue with you and poke you and tell you that what you are studying is not real...so this blog should come as no suprise...

i have informed everyone i know to go follow your blog(via A's fb status and tweet.) so yay you

but seriously? blogging for marks?? you get that? im shocked i need to study what you are studying....

gosh
not real

k thats all lecture time* yay bio

ps V. you know i heart you...
have a happy day everyone
xoxo, smile

roses and lilies and all things pretty****

happy sping day

(for yesterday)




(yes this is a real picture)









(i want to put you in my hair)



lets go on vac... mission to this place*


have a happy spring
smile, xoxo

pics from john shaw and fabulousnature.com

MID-SEMESTER VAC, HELL YEAH!!!!!!!

so fricken amped for vac. this term has been far to catoic and long and tiring...
and strange...everyones come back from vac and things were weird... someones got "beef" with someone else... friendly politics...

but yay back to vac..im excited i get to watch V and make it or break it* and prince of persia. FINALLY!
also i havent baked in like 50million years (i partly blame A. coz i hardly see u nowdays and i mainly baked for u)

moving on... my fam came to visit last week and yes they did end up at grand west(my mums like that) and just like that my aunty won R79 000...so i got free money... what can one by with R500? i know just R500 i would have blown all of thet in two days! shopping spree but maybe i'll go buy some awesome shoes or a press dress???? or shades...i need those..

speaking of dresses i want more! i could live my whole in dresses with friends in the sun and be completely happy...

yes i am happier now than i was before the last post...long story dnt ask...

and im rambling again
k bye

rambling of a mad person....

so im blogging again partly because all of like 5people may or maynot read this and im completely fine with that...

this is week 3, i think,of campus and my head is spinning so fast im scared its going to fall off! i have pracs and lectures and tuts and my days are never ending AND IM EXHAUSTED!

i've also developed an uncanny ability to FAIL maths which i have again... gosh integration sucks i really wish i could write my tests in a less intimidating atmosphere.. maybe then my mind would remain intact and id actually beable to think straight and pass! in summary maths:5 chey:....

but yes im loving what im studying(minus maths and the long hours) im considering doing this delgation thing... hopefull it will help in my attempt to help the world* and it seems fun

i also love how people find it so strange that im just a nice person(well 99% of the time) apparently it not normal*....guys i love you and do not wish for your'll to fail maths...coz your degree depends on it more than mine does. so give me ur book so i can give you notes, thanks!

government(gauteng) has also decided that they actually want to change again and have called up my mum as they ready to start their coaching. im excited this means one step closer to getting my own appartment...i think id like that* well id have my brother but he doesnt count...

but yes life is just over-whelming, i cant spell, and at times i want to curl into a ball and disappear but giving up is never an option* someone else wants what i have and i will fight to help them get it*

i will help others cause thats what life is... some people cant help their situation but i can...so yes it is a strange degree but its what i do best and what makes me happy soooo deal with that..

ok i think ive exhausted this post and myself... jammer for the intensity

have a happy day
xoxo, smile*

may our friendship last forever

May our friendship last forever
by Nicholas Gordon

May our friendship last forever;
May I sail upon your sea.
May we go through life together;
May there always be a "WE."
May I be your endless sky;
May you breathe my gentle air.
May you never wonder why
Each time you look for me, I'm there.



May we be for each a smile
Like the warm, life-giving sun;
Yet when we're in pain awhile,
May our suffering be one.



May we share our special days,
The happiness of one for two;
And if we must go separate ways,
LET MY LOVE REMAIN WITH YOU.



smile, xoxo

a long time coming....

sooooo i've decsided to blog today...as i have a free and nothing to stress over yet.
V's blog made me tear up and then A's and now i've realised how much
I MISS THEM*
sigh, campus is going okay on day two.... just like three months left. joy!

right now i realy want to be at A's with L and everyone else laughing and cooking and clealing after messing, watching disney classics and talking to a random guy...
good times*

sooo i think i've broken my own record. i have not watch nemo in like 8months! wow...thats scarey and saddening...

k, so i've run out of things to say but i shall blog again tomorrow and yes i know its been like months since my last blog(stop shaking your head V. gosh..)

Miss you guys

smile,xoxo*

L.A.C.K o.f I.R.O.N

so i was all ampted to go donate blood and then i got there and my iron was tooooo low. damn aneamia!!! but thats ok coz i shall go back tomorrow and hopefully not faint before my test in the evening...or there might be problems...

however i remembered a funny/slighty traumatic story of giving blood that involved victoria in grade11 and i lol-ed!!!!!

but now i have an hour to kill before my tut so i am going to find something to do... study geo??? now???? its cold.... nah...

oh and the wind is fricken ridiculus! i wa walking backwards in a foward motion!
happy days!
xoxo

winter rainfall*

its monday and as usual im sitting in comlabs blogging due to a lack of a first lecture. this morning cape town woke up to cold, RAINY weather... and i was excited...
well not the about the cold part but about the rainy part! yay no shawco* lol.... ok thats kinda mean.. but i dnt wana get sick*

there is currently a conversation going on between A and V on my new facebook picture. lol it reminded my of how great they both are!!!

its cold. im cold. do i need to go geo??? i think i shall... grr
have a happy day*
xoxo

....memories*

sooo i was looking through facebook pictures and i came across this one....


and then i lol-ed in the middle of comlabs.....awkward....
it was great! i miss those days...

this pic is when andy and i decided we where going to rearrange the posters on ms ceasers wall and steal two others* yeah note to grade 8's... DONT PUT POSTERS OF THE JONAS BROTHERS ON THE WALL!

thats all

....new discoveries***

soooooo i was complaining about not having watched any new gossip girl or 90210 when my sister interjected and told me that it was all on the laptop and that i SHOULD go watch it!!! lol... yes claire i now shall....

for those who know of dc++ it has been banned at campus... well almost all of campus... apperently the microbio students with their own lab live in their own world where dc++ still exists! gotta love knowing people in science faculty... speaking of science i shall be changing my degree and mostly maths... but that a bleak story so i shall move on...

im not enjoying the cold but i am enjoying wearing my AWESOME new coat and my new BLACK BOOTS!!! it works with everything....

soooo i should be in geo but seeing as i have the tendancy to bunk every now and then i am now sitting in comlabs where i am blogging because i cant open my eco tut*

and this is getting long sooo i shall end now
love to all
xoxo

baking...

and my house will smell of these....
...

and maybe these...


thats all...
xxx

winters here....

sooo i am blogging again, coz A is right and V is lame and i shall be in trouble for that true statement*

winter is almost here and i can tell because the sun has disappeared and i am sick!
so i currently feel like this..



and i really wish i could do this...


but i shall do this instead...


and this guy is soooo right!!!!!


on a happier note... the sun came out today and i am happy soaking it all up* before it disappears into nothingness again...

i am missing L an SJ and and A and V and think its lame we dont see each other anymore* we must reunite again**
and i would like to watch nemo... so A i am coming to visite you, k?

lots of love to you all
have a happy day,
xoxo...smile*

Vac!!!!!!!!!!

soooo campus is closing soon and everyone is going home(well almost)
and im a tad bit bleak coz i wont be seeing everyone.... but i shall be ok coz we are going to have a taco "salsa" night! and a movie marathon and i am going to try and catch up on all the work i have been missing due to im not actually sure what*

but yes its also lisy's 18th vaab this weekend and im shall most likely go...and i will try to nice to faheem and i should be doing work now but im feeling overwhelmed and realy just want to kish out.... AND DRINK REALY HAD ALCOHOL!(i will deny that)

i just noticed that this is the only post that i have ever typed proper stuff in...its kinda nice....lol

well this is how i am now feeling coz i have again rememmbered that people are going home* and i shall miss them (even the one that doesnt talk....)




and im kinda excited to go to chrome on wensday.... i hope they shall let me...but first i should focus on my geo test....or i shall be in shyt*


and this is for shards and leshy and aunty mona* everything will be ok and i love your'll lots*****

see they are bright and happy and when i see your'll we shall be happy for now just get better*

thats all folks....
xoxo,smile...

i CARRY your HEART*

I CARRY YOUR HEART WITH ME....
ee cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear



no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you



here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart



I carry YOUR HEART(i carry it in MY HEART)


soooo this was for V. i typed it last week but am only posting it now coz i thought i lost it....lol...
and yay to V for completing the argus* though i wish i saw you with your awesome "new" tan* lol
but this is one of my favorite poems too and i think its magical and touching(tear)

annnnd thats all..
xoxo,smile*

for ACSAH!!!!!!

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!
so this is for acsah coz i've missed you theses past two years and im glad you in cape town now coz its even more fun with you*



i hope you enjoying the sun....


and the mountain....


and that you are having fun going clubbing.....


....and thats all
xoxo

A late birthday post......

dear lisy.....

sooooo i missed your birthday and taco night and im late on your birthday blog but you can expect that from me....(jammer and remember i heart you*)

soooo yay its YOUR birthday:)(ok fine was....gosh)


and i hope you had an amazing time at taco night birthday vaabs...

i will bake you that cake one day...

and that you did this coz....yes you are AWESOME!!!


and i just like this pic coz it has all my fav things about you in it.... oh and coz i made you look like a funny with the sticker thing and then took the pic:):):):):):)


and lastly but most importantly...
i love you*

xoxo

taco night

firstly....this pic is for andy coz when i saw it.... i was like wow* andy could totaly pull that off!!!!!!

secondly: campus is bleak...im going to fail economics coz i dont konw whats going on in my lectures and i partly dont care.....and i havent been going to my firsts....fml....

thirdly: VICTORIA needs to blog... i am now following her***
oh and we need to have a taco night* hence the title...



xoxo, have a happy thursday
smile.....

VICTORIA AUDERY JANE PARKER-SMITH!!!

just to make you feel special....









you seriously are a weird kid....but its why we love you.....

((and on a different note i was 15minutes late for my anthropology lecture(at 8am) so i didnt go which now means i have not been to any of my lectures and im offically heading in the right direction for failure*))

love to all...
have a happy day
xoxo, smile****

for sarahjane.....

lovely lynsay.......

i know times have been taxing and you feeling a tad bit bleak so im blogging for you you let you know i care(coz i always do...)


this is a poem for you......

and i want you to have this....


and know that i will always be around though you may not know it......


and when i see you we shall do this...


and remember that i love you...



have a happy week my friend.....
smile, xoxo

i found this on L's blog.....

If I were a month, I’d be december...(it makes people happy)
If I were a day of the week, I’d be a friday
If I were a time of day, I’d be dawn....
If I were a planet, I’d be PLUTO! its cute....
If I were a sea animal, I’d be a star fish
If I were a direction, I’d be confused!
If I were a piece of furniture, something fun.....
If I were a historical figure, I’d be
If I were a liquid, I’d be chai tea :)
If I were a gemstone, I’d be a saphire
If I were a tree, a beeeeeeg 1
If I were a tool, i dont want to be a tool
If I were a flower, I’d be a SUNFLOWER
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be a sunny
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a piano
If I were a color, I’d be a blend of orange and red
If I were an emotion, I’d be happy
If I were a fruit, I’d be a grapes
If I were a sound, I’d be wind
If I were an element, I’d be earth
If I were a car, I’d be a aston martin
If I were a food, I dnt wana be eaten
If I were a place, I’d be the rain forest
If I were a material, I’d be silk
If I were a taste, I’d be a jelly tot
If I were a scent, I’d be lavender
If I were an object, flower
If I were a body part, I’d be hair
If I were a facial expression, I'd be confused!
If I were a song, I’d be something viby!
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be PURPLE!

ok now i have a lecture...peace*

xoxo, smile****

apologies.....

so i havent blogged in about two months and i DO blame VICTORIA for it though im not sure why exactly...

soooo campus has been hectic and i will post a better blog in time but for now this will do....

love love love
xoxo...smile*